My brother’s a few years younger than me and I’m his older sister. It was pretty recently I got better from a decade long illness that put me into a semi conscious and half bedbound state. I have almost no memory of that decade and now I’m adjusting. I had spent a whole year getting used to being able to eat properly again. When I was ill my classmates who I was friends with moved cities and kinda moved on so I’m back to square one and feel a bit lost. My brother and his friends are members of the same subculture I’m in.
I have 2 close friends but they’re American and it’s online, nothing in person. So I’m single and only have 2 friends who are American and who I speak to over Discord. Recently I finished therapy and the therapist told me that friendships are important. Sometimes my brother goes out with his friends (don’t know how many of them are girls but I don’t mind either way, I’m a tomboy and get along slightly better with guys) and I was wondering if it’d be weird to want to want to tag along sometimes as a start?
I don’t think it’s weird, but your whole situation is pretty unusual, so I wouldn’t let “weird” become an obstacle for you. Some things are going to be weird no matter what you do, so just roll with it. You’ve said you and your brother have a good relationship, so why not just explain to him what’s going on with you and ask if he could include you at least sometimes? Not too much to lose by talking about it.
It sounds like a lot for you to deal with. I hope you’re doing better now and can find your way back to a life you feel satisfied with.