Yesterday, I made a choice that was very tough for me to make. So three years ago, I had a best friend, and we both liked each other. Things got hard because my feelings went too far, I became emotionally unstable and turned into an attention seeker. So because of that, I then ended the friendship.

Recently, she added me back. I thought we could be friends again because I felt like I improved my mental state in the last two years and won’t turn into an attention seeker again. Well, a week later, I was the same as I was three years ago.

It was ruining my mental health severely. I couldn’t focus on anything. But I still wasn’t ready to give up on the friendship because she was a very nice friend, and I still liked her for some reason. So I refused to give up. But things got worse real quick, and then I decided to write a long message to her explaining why I can’t continue this friendship and then I blocked her everywhere.

At the cost of ending all probabilities of a future with her, I feel much better now.

Gotta do something about this attention-seeking thing, though.