I only managed to move out recently. Unfortunately there was a lot of damage done to our relationship prior to me moving out, and its damage I don’t believe he is aware is there. Even if it is, neither of us are eager to confront it. I still visit, and try to do it about bi-weekly (distance being the main factor), but it always feels awkward and I don’t think that will go away until the current state of America improves or we take the effort to fix the issues. Further unfortunately, I worry that he won’t change and that is a huge barrier to mending our relationship.

Our relationship is in a really difficult spot. If we don’t try and work through it and just keep skirting around things and avoiding the problem things will never improve and it will always be awkward around him. But if we confront things, there is a good likelyhood things will end up worse than they already are