I am wresting my life back after having it derailed by others

i feel hopeless so often but at least I am making rational decisions for myself, not just reacting to crazy making relatives, and i can’t see the good of it yet but it will come, bit by bit, like a giant ship changing direction

so my motivation, a better future, but also for mr seagoon and miss seagoon

I am making habits, getting self discipline, so that when I don’t feel like doing things I will still do them