I think that’s my problem. I’m kinda stuck in a loop of work,sleep,work,sleep. I try to capitalize on my weekends as much as possible but its just so difficult. I work graveyard and on my first day off i have to work that morning. I try to stay up as late as possible but usually I fall asleep around 1500 or so. When I feel like eating a bullet ill head up the mountains and go target shooting. Maybe that sounds counterintuitive but it’s a hobby I’ve had as long as i can remember. I can’t really do that rn though because my rifle is broken and I need a gunsmith to fix it. I’d have taken it in but for some reason thinking about it makes me feel really anxious. I can’t really think of any reason why either besides the fact that I’ve just never used gunsmithing services before.

During the workweek I don’t ever have more than one drink because it makes what little sleep I get to be not that restful.

You’re right about flirting with coworkers. Fortunately I don’t think I’ve done it so much that it’s begun to define me. There’s this one woman who works with me and she’s just so great. I want to ask her out but we have different days off and the nice restaurants I’d take her don’t open until mid day- when we have to sleep for work.

I’m not sure if you ever saw the r/RelationshipAdvice subreddit but one the questions asked on almost every thread is “What value do you bring to a relationship?” And I’ve never been able to satisfactorily answer that question. I mean I’m just an average guy. I can’t offer much beyond companionship and trivia about dinosaurs. Even my hobbies aren’t relatable for most women. Still I know a wife isn’t going to just fall in my lap, it’s one of those things you have to work towards.

Anyway I appreciate your reply friend. Lots of sound advice from you.