• melbaboutown@aussie.zone
    5·
    3 days ago
    Bummer, vomit warning, skip if vents bring you down

    I’ve been trying to eat more and exercise but it’s so hard. I just took a second walk because I’m so antsy and understimulated but came home and was immediately sick. Despite my best efforts my stomach just medically doesn’t function properly and it gets worse when I’m stressed out.

    Sometimes I wonder what the point of my life is if it’s going to be so hard. I don’t want much. I don’t want to be rich or have fancy things. I don’t care about sex or relationships. I don’t care about being famous or in any way exceptional.

    I just want to be okay. I just want my cat and I to live somewhat happily and not have every single day be a shitfight.

    • Seagoon_@aussie.zone
      4·
      3 days ago

      go to nice places

      find some nice people

      everyday write down at least one good thing that happened or that you did

      ( me, I think I have a friend currawong, it seems to follow me around the garden and on the balcony. I saw a mirage on the bay, a big boat that seemed to float above the water )

      • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
        3·
        3 days ago

        I can’t really go anywhere. I don’t think I want to anymore.

        I just take comfort in my cat, my plants and the maggies.

    • imoldgreeeg@aussie.zone
      3·
      3 days ago

      Two things, take them as you need.

      1. fuck it’s hard. Hugs of the biggest kind. You do so much to be ok and you deserve to be ok and safe and healthy and I wish nothing but grace .
      2. my science training taught me that the hydrogen in me is 13.8 billion years old, the carbon from old stars, the iron from supernovae. In some ways I am the most boring thing that has ever happened to me. In other ways this is how the universe sees itself. Even my worst moments are ok because that’s just part of the whole universe experience. That’s not twee. That’s objective fact.

      Both these things are true. Use what you need or throw them out if it’s not what you need right now.

    • LowExperience2368@aussie.zone
      3·
      3 days ago

      Hugs for you and melbcat <3

      Try not to be so hard on yourself. Exercise does have its benefits, but if it’s not benefiting you right now, then that’s okay.

      I remember you recommended Ensure to me a while ago, is this something on the cards for you? I’ve been drinking Sustagen when my appetite goes.

      I know fuck all about life Melba, but I know that taking comfort in the little things, like snuggles with melbcat, makes life richer.