I think I fixed the dishwasher. It appears to be working now. 🤞 I got the front wheels off the pram to soak and scrub them after the dog shit incident but not the back wheels. I know how to but they’re stuck so I’ve put cooking oil to soak in to those parts and will just have to move that to the back area of the lino for when I mop. If I have to chuck the base I have a spare one from where the carrier part of that got ruined.
TW mental health
My sleep pattern is so bad and my mental health has been worse. I’ve been randomly having anxiety and grief crashouts so bad I puke but also desperately trying to regain some control and fix everything to try and ease my mind. Been talking with people about Melbcat and showing cute photos of her but nothing seems to help. I wish I could just cry normally, break down and howl like an animal but it doesn’t feel safe to do that with the people in my block.
I think I fixed the dishwasher. It appears to be working now. 🤞 I got the front wheels off the pram to soak and scrub them after the dog shit incident but not the back wheels. I know how to but they’re stuck so I’ve put cooking oil to soak in to those parts and will just have to move that to the back area of the lino for when I mop. If I have to chuck the base I have a spare one from where the carrier part of that got ruined.
TW mental health
My sleep pattern is so bad and my mental health has been worse. I’ve been randomly having anxiety and grief crashouts so bad I puke but also desperately trying to regain some control and fix everything to try and ease my mind. Been talking with people about Melbcat and showing cute photos of her but nothing seems to help. I wish I could just cry normally, break down and howl like an animal but it doesn’t feel safe to do that with the people in my block.
It has never in my life been safe to stop and fully openly grieve and usually I’ve had to compartmentalise to survive the next immediate crisis. https://www.tumblr.com/sometiktoksarevalid/803770369219624960
so many hugs
don’t worry, you’re doing ok, this grief is normal
maybe bathroom crying?
I can still probably be easily heard :(
And I’m still kind of at the stunned disbelief stage with it just starting to break through in little bits