• melbaboutown@aussie.zone
    link
    fedilink
    arrow-up
    7
    ·
    edit-2
    13 days ago
    Extended complaining

    I’m feeling so frustrated at how disability and other environmental barriers make hobbies so difficult, especially outdoorsy ones. Before things got like this and before I lived here I used to enjoy forest walks, gardening, tai chi, handiwork (on top of the solitary indoor stuff which is now getting worn thin). Edit: Also I gave nightlife a go but decided it wasn’t really for me.

    You get the picture.

    It leads to being terminally online which wouldn’t be so bad in the circumstances… but there seems to be a massive generational divide and culture shifts that make it the opposite of good.

    And yeah, the internet always had a shittiness to it but there were at least some norms around managing it then (like ‘don’t feed the trolls’ ‘not your personal army’ ‘lurk moar’ and ‘do not go online and talk to adults while announcing that you’re a child’) and I’m finding the behaviour to be ruder and more maladaptive now. The users are inappropriately young and somehow more obnoxious than they used to be. More invasive.

    (And yes, this is an expected function of getting older, but I have never liked kids and teens. I’ve been a cranky old person since I was 8 years old. This crop just have managed to worsen or invent new bad behaviours. Social media is getting very toxic.)

    The people I actually talk to are drifting away.

    I really feel like all of the online platforms except this one are just a bad fit for me, and I feel like the area I live in is also pretty incompatible for me.

    Plus I’m in pain all the damn time. -_- Quality of life is pretty low right now.

    I could join online disability groups but I really don’t want to. There’s little new information that I can’t Google and I don’t want it to be my identity and the centre of my life, you know?

    I have other things I’d do but I’m not currently up to it. Not really workable until I get my health managed and possibly move out of my current shithole. Which may never happen.

    • LowExperience2368@aussie.zone
      link
      fedilink
      arrow-up
      4
      ·
      13 days ago

      Sorry Melba :(

      Do you have any updates on your living situation? Any news on when you can get out of there?

      In the mean time, it’s different to real life gardening, but Stardew Valley has always been there for me in times of need. I spent ages getting immersed in it - it’s like a mindfulness exercise, because it kind of forces you into the present. I’m sure there are similar games that are low cost / free if you’re interested. Although I’m sure gaming communities are full of youth, you’ll have the game to talk about.

      • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
        link
        fedilink
        arrow-up
        3
        ·
        edit-2
        13 days ago

        Ahhh… ahaha… I actually stopped playing some games because of the kids specifically but also other players got a little bit much in general. Single player are good but get a bit repetitive after a while.

        Don’t worry about it, I’m just a bit salty right now. I don’t think I’m getting out of here to be honest.

        I’ll find something I’m able to do, I’m just mad at being curtailed.

          • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
            link
            fedilink
            arrow-up
            3
            ·
            13 days ago

            Maybe! I used to have Animal Crossing when I had a DS but kinda got bored with it.

            Now it’s Minecraft single player from time to time but I’m not enjoying it as much as I used to.