Hey people, I think you’re really cool and thank you for being cool. Like totally aeesome peolle thabkful to be here ahh 💜

Edit: no u

I joined the reddit Melbourne dt because it looked fun. Sometimes I comment sometimes I don’t. Then I read comments that are snarky and bitter and I think for a brief moment are you a cunt irl? Anyway love you guys ♥ (I am sober by the way. For the time being. Not afraid to show my feels).

Good news with a sting. I got my new casual role and pay confirmed and it’s definitely all in the right direction.

Unfortunately… Work wants the company car back immediately upon ending my ft role. They’ve been much more flexible with others who have gone casual in the past, and in the meeting he did say he’d give me some lead time so I can make my own arrangements, but… today after heading into the office he was all paggro and sarcastic again so I don’t expect any favours.

I was prepared for the eventuality and overall I MUCH prefer letting go my old work than keeping the car on, but seeing it in writing - to happen two weeks from now - has definitely been a shock to the nervous system. Like whoa, I wasn’t prepared to say bye so soon and go back to a carless life that fast, especially when I’ll still have two weeks of catsitting to do after that.

I’m definitely feeling that big-change-loss-anxiety-fear (and OMG! how will i visit my friends or get bigger groceries etc? I won’t be able to go into the office easily any more, no more regional trips unless I use carshare)

But I think it’s mixed in with excitement and determination because life is definitely making me start to commit to what I want and get out of that rut. I’ve lived on far far less and without a car for most of my adult life. Crucially, i never have to worry about being kicked out of this country. So everything is heaps better than before.

It’s time to get cracking …after I indulge in some escapism tonight. Good Omens maybe.

Mr Sulu, set a course for the Friday drinks region. Warp factor 5.

gee thanks bunnings, ya think?

Working from home today.

This guy wants me to take him out I think.

Nearly at the dreaded 300 comments (with spinny thing and collapsed responses). I’m proud of us.

A quick little story. My kid has a big group of friends. One is very needy, very self-centred young lass. Another is a meek young man. Well yesterday he had enough (I don’t know if this was in text or in person) but he told her “I can’t grow as a person with you in my life” and then ended all contact. I could not stop laughing at this.

For the record a couple of the friends had deaths in the family and the young lass was complaining that nobody was paying any attention to her.

Cheers comrades 🍻

Tonight we’re celebrating an excellent report for our kid with food, beer and music 😉

I am doing 3 samosa

They are deep fried.

I am swapping 2 (!) samosa for 1 sanity.

That’s a good deal.

This has been a difficult week :(

I went out with my sister and her friend tonight and the two of them were clearly different people.

When we went separate ways with the friend, I turned to my sister and said,

“You and _____ are so different, how did you become friends?”

She said,

“We have similar morals and we vibe (which I think means connect emotionally and get along well).”

That was the point where I realised I haven’t emotionally connected with someone like that in YEARS. Everything has felt so surface level. The last time I felt like that about someone was probably high school (which I’d say wasn’t that long ago, being a non-mature aged uni student now).

It’s been a very long time since I’ve felt like someone gets me and I get them, like we’re on the same wavelength. It’s a sad reality that the people I see the most are not THE people that I “vibe” with. No wonder why I feel so freaking sad all the time - that’s definitely a reason.

I’d heard the legends online… in my hubris I laughed in the face of them and dared to indulge in a hearty meal at US Taco Bell. Wearing cream coloured shorts, I challenged the legends and trusted not one, not two but three farts on my trip back to the hotel… so I guess you can say I’m into extreme sports. Little did I know they were the horns sounding the announcement of the oncoming storm.

I am now an empty husk of my former self. I have been humbled by the Bell. The legends are true.

Pic of my life before it changed forever:

Going to spend the night cuddling the cat and playing video games. Being sick isn’t too bad with a fluffy friend who’s chasing around a moth lol

God today was stressful. Trying to train someone what you know while also doing the same work, like I don’t know if it’s the people pleaser or ADHD but I pick up things super quickly, so why can’t others???

So glad it’s Friday tbh. Physio right now and then paying for new glasses tomorrow

Edit: physio is done cost me $55, but the physio i had was cool, very chatty. My usual physio is on maternity leave, so it was weird trying to describe what I needed

A tiring but productive day in the garden today. I have a bunch of old concrete channel drain sections so I’ve used those and some old bricks to make a raised drainage channel across the garden. So now I can empty the buckets of water I use in the potting area onto that and it takes most of the water across to my apricot tree (with a few leaks along the way which will water other plants too).

After doing that, cutting out the climbing rose this morning and a few other bits and pieces I am thoroughly exhausted. I’m going to have a shower, heat some stew to have with mashed potato for dinner and then it will be full on relax time.