Since I was eleven, every five or so years, something happens where I get really upset or stressed, and during those four times so far, I end up seeing this made-up thing. The thing I see is a mythical creature, and it is not supposed to be kind, in fact it is meant to be evil, but when I hallucinated it, it was incredibly gentle, and I honestly felt so comforted. It always felt completely real, like an actual person was standing there. The first time it happened was right after I saw something about the creature in the news and a magazine, and I was feeling very lonely.
Each time, the hallucination happened in public (first time was at school) and I lost real time, once for half an hour a few years ago. They always looked a bit different, like a new individual of the species each time, and sometimes there were two of them which talked to me and also talked amongst themselves during the conversation. I have not had any other hallucinations and for months now I feel sad that this being is fictional because of what I experienced. I feel conflicted about that, since this creature is meant to be an evil one that hurts or even kills innocent people, not something that comforts people.
I keep finding myself looking at media (movies, shows, books, etc) that has this creature in it. In one way, I feel comforted, and in another, it makes me feel saddened. I actually feel like I’ve become addicted to looking things about this creature up. I’d say I spend about an hour each day looking into it. It scratches an itch on the brain. There are very few pieces of media where the creature is portrayed as good rather than evil.
No, it just means you still have some form of hope and imagination left. Hold onto it for as long as you can
I mean, I’m pretty upset that I won’t be able to see a living pentaceratops, seismosaurus, or T-Rex. So, no, I think it’s fine.
I’m not a therapist, nor do I have any expertise in any of this, but I would recommend seeing a professional, because imagining things is one thing, but actually feeling like they are real could be a sign of something more that you may want to look into.
No blaming you for wanting companionship during tough and lonely times, but if it were me I would really question if it felt 100% real or if I knew it was imaginary.
I agree with everything you said
Read goodgoodgood.co articles studies about hope. One about 14 year study, and the other from June/July about how Hope is Fundamental to Life. Any other articles too. Then cultivate hope DAILY.
Also, think about this, scientists are reviving the wholly mammoth in a way. In near future we will be able to revive other species, and then even make brand new ones. Think new kinds of dogs, new kinds of species for pets, new kinds of species to mount for transpirtation (Dragons for example with dog genes for friendliness and trainability). So it will be possible to make what you are seeing in near future
Last thing learn to draw it digitally. Would love to see what you see. Post it online when completed. Paint/Draw pick your art medium
No. In fact, I encourage you to believe into mythical creatures more. Hell, I do, I believe in the phoenix.
If there’s going to be millions on the planet who believe in invisible deities and not prove them to exist, fuck it, I’m going to believe in mythical creatures.
I don’t generally think encouraging people to live in fantasies is a good idea. I understand your viewpoint on religion being a fantasy, but unfortunately there is a difference between religion and believing centaurs are real.
Well see that’s where you’re wrong right there and know it.
There is virtually no difference. We don’t know if there is for certain, without a doubt, that there is a God if which we will ever see after we die or anything the scriptures and bible itself tells true. Millions to billions of people have died over this, most of which was slaughter and we aren’t anywhere closer to the truth, if there is any.
How many people can you account have killed or done things in the name of mythical creatures? Not many and there isn’t a reason to and people to an extent, may acknowledge that there might not be a mythical creature but why not believe in it. While those who’re religious, continue living in denial, making radio and TV stations about it, letting their beliefs even dictate the course of law and justice to country while just not admitting that it could be the same grounds.
Done with you.
Um, NTA?
Not bad at all. I’m in my 50s and constantly disappointed there are none. The more I learned about actual reality as I grew up the more disappointed I became.
That’s why books, comics, movies, games, even cartoons/anime are so popular.
Don’t feel bad, keep looking for the magic.
I would love to know more about this creature
Mythical or not, how creatures or people are portrayed in media often has very little to do with how they actually are. Or especially how one acts towards an individual, such as you. As long as it’s not leading you into doing something dangerous, or withdrawing from reality, your version/interpretation is just as valid as the stories someone else dreamed up.
I wanna reincarnate as SCP-999
Nice try, AI
IDC if it’s weird or not; I wanna be a cartoon dog. Fuck this gross, three dimensional human bitch body. 😩
So I get it.
Frankly, I’m torn on this one. I have a few fantasies that I like to pretend are real because I think they prevent me from falling off the edge into the chasm of complete insanity, while at the same time recognising that it’s not strictly sane to maintain the fantasy in the first place.
But this is something I consciously maintain. There are no elements completely beyond my control like visual hallucination.
The closest I get is the occasional flash of something I’ve been doing for a while if I close my eyes (basically the Tetris effect ), and maybe the occasional auditory equivalent if it goes quiet.
And yet, in my dreams I’ve had full blown conversations with people where I haven’t expected what they’re going to say next, so I suppose if all the above combined into one, I might have a similar experience to you, OP… but then I’d have to strongly considering contacting a medical or psychological professional.
Lapsing uncontrolled into a dream - however comforting that dream might be - when out in the world, could be dangerous for you or people around you. Imagine if you’re driving. Or controlling some other form of machinery. Or heck, even pushing a shopping cart.
